Dear Wanning, I think you have got too many potentials and what is worse is that you got too smart. That is why you hesitate to utilize any. That is why you do not want to work hard. And now you feel nervous for getting closer and closer to your 30 yrs and you look back trying to deny all the achievements you have made. Yes, you are right, you have not achieved much at all if you compare with your sister academically, compare with your friends financially or in terms of family, meaning having children. But you have been through a period of real life which is crucial, to be exact, in some way, it cracked all your beautiful images about life and people that you had before. But you had this experience of feeling the real life and real people. This is important even though from time to time you feel the pain out of it. But look, you have to go though this sooner or later, and sooner is always better than later. Relax yourself a bit. you are going to do fine in tomorrow’s exam. I have no question about it. Then you are going to study some accounting as you plan, right? It is good for you. As long as you build up yourself with more professional knowledge, you are going to take more control over things and your thinking style will be improved because of your stronger confidence. I like your new name, it is cool and new. Use it! Maybe started it from your birthday? Or you can use two of your names if you want. Remember it is not a big problem of which name you use, it is the person you feel you are more important. Now do your last review and be prepared for the exam and have a good relaxation after tomorrow afternoon. Talk to you again. Diary of Joy
