At some point this evening, I figured out what I want for all of these time.
I need to be secured, to be safe, to be loved, and not have to worry about things.
But the oposite side is that, I did not get it, instead, I keep loosing it and get dumped at some degree.
kind of sad, get dumped by friends, boyfriends, but luckily, I wasn't abandoned by my family.
Happy to think of them and maybe I will keep looking.......and trying.........