It has been 20 months since I first fell in love with him. We have experienced many ups and downs and I still cannot fully understand him. Last month when I was out of town, he called me many times for a long time while I was lying on the beach or in the hotel room. He talked about our future. When I was back to town, his passion started to fade bit by bit the second day I was back. It has been 3 weeks since his last passion. I am a little bit tired of this kind of roller coaster cycle.