我自从上大学来就一直在折腾，从大一起到现在，八年搬了八次家，三个国家四个城市，虽说经历了不少，学了不少，但心里实在是有点厌烦了。每到一个新地方就要努力的去适应新的环境，结交新的朋友，当筛筛选选过后刚刚找到一拨臭味相投的狐朋狗友，刚刚习惯我的生活的routine，又要一切从头开始。以前总认为“自由”和“稳定”是自相矛盾的， 但现在看来并非如此。很多时候我们只想拥有享受“自由”的机会，但真正能运用这种机会的次数几乎是零。就像有些人看late night infomercial 然后一下子买了有６００件不同大小钻头的钻子，满以为那一天能用上，可事实呢，其中５９９件都在车库落灰。能离开日本并不代表着真正的自由，在日本等入籍并不代表着失去自由，最终的自由还是在你的心里。
靠，上一断话太肉麻太chicken-soup for the soul了，看来今晚还要继续屠杀些脑细胞。
I find out that there are so many surprises and fun in life when I stop being a follwer. Life is like one of those adventure computer games, one little character walking around to beat monsters, look for treasures, rescue the princess...different ways to choose, lots of doors to open...If you have read the solution before you play it, you would be able to finish the game quickly and perfectly, but less fun. If you just go on your own, you might walk through the ways followers never try, open the doors followers never dare to open...behind those doors, there might be some scary fire dragon which makes you scream SHIT, also might be countless shining golden coins or gorgeous beauties...who knows...well, you know, only when you dare to open the door =)
In my opinoin, one's value system defines the way one lives. To a turtle, a race horse is crazy. But, if one was born with the genes of a race horse, one might get pleasure from being crazy. Millon people have millon philosophies of life. Unless one chooses to study them, one can well ignore them. To me, finally, I am content with being a deviant to choose to live with my potential. I enjoy the peak experiences from my efforts, lots are against nature. Foolish or not, I have my own judgement, which is the one really matters. I can see you are a person who observes, thinks, practices rather than merely follows. We most likely are not able to figure out life, however, we cannot help figuring...
