I happened to read your blog sometimes ago and for some reason keep coming back to read your update. I think I like your blog because it is real, it is from your heart. Another reason is that I had a similar experience as yours except I am a man in love with a woman. I felt the same emotion as yours or you described exactly the emotion I felt toward the relationship, even some interaction between you and your friend happened to me and my friend, but I felt, sometimes ago, that the relationship would not bear fruit. even though I felt sad sometimes, but still felt sweet in my memoir. Hope you well.