前夫去世了
四十年前，一对无缘人就这么阴差阳错的结婚了，二十多年的磨合除了一对可爱的儿女见证了我们之间的平淡无味的岁月外，我们彼此都把爱和情给了我们的孩子们。孩子们长大啦，我们的日子也走到了尽头。
离婚之后虽然我们仍然同住一个城市，同在一个大学工作，但我们早在离婚前就成了陌路人。我以为离婚宣判了我们之间的结局，我真的以为我和他之间再也没有了瓜葛。直到今天当我听到健康如牛的他突然去世了，我的心一下子就像被针扎了一样的痛得我喘不过来气。原来有缘无份的我们早让二十多年的相伴，把彼此习以为常的生活注入了我们的生命里。我为儿女们失去了父亲而痛，我为年迈的前婆婆失去儿子而痛，我也为失去的辛苦了大半辈子的前夫而痛。眼泪就这么为他流着，我是一个好强女人，我不记得离婚的时候这么伤心过，我不记得从何时开始他的存在对我来说早成了亲情的家人…
生命的长短真的是没法用我们的时间尺寸去度量的。平时体弱多病的我一直是他关照的对象，他常常说我生病的时候是他最能派上用场的时候，因为他可以有机会照顾我…哎，其实在我刚刚来美国的时候，是他为我，也为我们曾有过的家撑起了那片天。他也曾害怕过，沮丧过，他也曾以老婆为自豪过，他说：“家里的大事都是他做主，小事都是老婆管。”当他的学生问他什么样的大事他做主了，结果他说目前家里还没发生过什么大事。为什么人总是在失去的时候才看到他的好？我为他祷告了一辈子，我不知道他走前有没有记得我告诉过他的话：“当我们不能掌控自己的命运的时候，别忘了抓住神的手，因为他能救你。” 真希望儿女们还能再见到他们的父亲。天堂的世界里有等待我们的亲人。
我不知道他为什么突然在自己的家里就去世了？我也没法想象他就这么舍得丢下自己的家人去了，但我知道我们都没法掌控自己的命运，走好我们每天的路，开心快乐的把生命的答卷在天父那里画上句号。
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女儿说：“I am so surprised to read all the comments about my dad's passing. He only started to sing in the past few years because he joined this community. When I would go back home to visit, he would sing for hours every night after dinner. I was so shocked by how loud he was! The last time I went back to visit him was in January 2022. I had to teach a class on Zoom in the evenings, and I made him promise not to sing until I was done, otherwise all my students would hear him from the basement!
Many people in his life only knew him for being an accomplished professor. But he also had many creative interests like drawing, photography, writing, and singing. And he was the best cook! Every time before I visited him, he would ask me what I wanted to eat and plan meals for the entire trip. He was a wonderful father.
I never knew that he was part of such a big singing community, and it makes me happy that he has so many friends and even fans here. I have learned a lot about him since he passed away, and hope that I can still be surprised by him in the future.
Please keep your loved ones close, call your parents or your children. My dad and I were close and we talked pretty regularly, but of course now I wish I could have talked to him more. He was healthy and full of energy, you can hear it in his singing. This was a shock to all of us.
Please celebrate his life and his singing, it would make him so happy.”
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