Tired

I always feel tired,Recently.I do not know where was wrong in my life.I only feel that i was going mad with somefeelings already. I have still remember that how loved my mother with,How close my sons with and how happy my love with,But,At now,All the feelings seem to had gone. I got tired with my mother to do anything.I fell worried when i seeing my sons.Even i always got angry with my love on chat time.And no one paid patient enough for me when i was unhappy. I had tried to change that feels many times before, But,noting could take that away,Except the drinking. Drinking took away all my hurt and worried at once. Although that just for a moment,But,Nothing and no one could instead it . So,what else can i do? I am more depend on the drinking.Sometimes ,I was afraid of to be a tippler,But,when the hurt were getting stronger,I have still choosed the way that drank and forgot.That is my only way to get better. I use to hoped that i can get a new life in the earier future,But,following the time was past,all the dreams had gone.

I always feel tired recently. I do not know what was wrong in my life.I only feel that i am going mad with somethings always. I still remember that how I loved my mother, how close my sons were with me and how happy my love was with me.  But now all the good feelings seem to have gone. I got tired of my mother doing everything. I feel worried when i see my sons. I even get angry with my love when chatting. And no one are patient enough with me when i am unhappy. I have tried to change that feelings many times before, But noting could take that away except drinking. Drinking takes away all my pains and worries at once. Although that stays just for a moment, but nothing else and no one could replace it . So what else can i do? I am more and more dependent on the drinking. Sometimes I was afraid of becoming a tippler. But when the pains are getting stronger, I still have to choose the way --- drink and forget. That is my only way to get better. I used to hope that i can get a new life in near future, but with the time passing by, all the dreams were gone.