不秋不冬之间的瞬间

天空有鸟飞过,却没有留下踪迹。
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在这样不秋不冬的淅沥绵连的雨中,过着后感恩节的日子。疲惫而焦虑,在种种负面情绪中努力寻找几秒钟的释然与开心。

比如昨天找到了感恩节那天丢掉的牙齿的night guard。把小儿子毛衣的袖子修改完了。今天甚至还独立给Charlie 洗了个澡。感觉以后自己可以至少每周给他洗个澡了。他太臭了,外面又太冷。抱他进花房的mud sink刚刚好。又高,他不至于一步跨出来;况且地面是瓷砖,溅湿了也不怕。他老了,正如走在老去路上的我们。

开始在开车时听圣诞歌曲:鼓舞自己的和儿子们的情绪。尤其那首开心的Feliz Navidad实在是儿子们听了也忍俊不禁。Pastor Rick曾说那是他最喜欢的一首圣诞歌曲。很喜庆,有拉丁的活泼与奔放。

莫名的疼痛在减轻中,让我不至于因行动牵扯疼痛而不耐烦。

儿子早晨将醒未醒之际的安静和清秀的脸。

素洁的family room和不素洁的living room。

幼子还没能完全识谱,而凭记忆和muscle memory在钢琴上能弹很多简单的曲子。

临睡前他玩marble run的十分钟,我有十分钟的阅读时间。昨晚读奇怪的英语of Plymouth Plantation。最早移民美洲的人们和土著的相处:和平与暴力;贫瘠死亡;甚至鼓励形式上的土地私有化的过程中妇女带着孩子也能播种玉米与不许私人耕种时人们找借口不干活的对比。嗯,米果也经历了这些。

郁闷的事情就不说了,这个让人郁闷无语的世界!

11/30/2022

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