Sad

Feel sad today espacially facing CIO who hired me a month ago.

I almost "lost" my previous job due to the fact that I almost lost myself like a friend commented earlier. Then I got this job and the CIO gave me the money even more than I asked for.

Yesterday I notified him that I need a month vacation go back to China for family affairs, he didn't say anything execpt ask me to fill vacation form. He might know I am going to quit the job, but he does not show his anger or frustration. I feel very sad about it. A colleague told me that he might crying secretly. He may not but I know he does not feel well either. Within a month, he fired my direct manager whom I saw him only twice, first, interviewing me along with the CIO, second time, my first day work, he showed me to our office but 15 minutes later the same day, he was escorted out by security. This shocked me. So when another company I interviewed a couple of months ago gave me an offer which roughly 20,0000 less, I took it as I think it is more secure which is more important to me expecially in my current situsation.

Within the month, I went out with him along with other IT colleagues played Golf twice. My current company is a international company and here in Canada, we have over 600 employees all over big cities across Canada.

Within the same month, two more IT staff left, within the year, 5 total left. Now I am the sixth..........

I don't want hurt him, so I just told him that I want to take vacation. My plan is to tell him at the end of the vacation, I either need to extend the vacation or quit the job, so it will not only save his face but also save him out of possible trouble if there is any from CEO and president.

I know the IT manager been fired is because conflicts between those two, but still, I feel at least the manager should get warning first before the firing. It may or may not, but the fire does shocked everyone and he must feel it therefore he anounced in our national IT meeting that he is going to keep the team for at least no change. But......

I know it might a blow to him and I feel so sad to quit the job like a traitor at this critical moment, but.....

All I can do is to make sure all the systems are working properly and been tunedup before I leave. Make sure test lab with all servers being set up. Make sure stardardized backup procedure in place.......as compensation.

Well, I may worry too much, even though it may not be true, still feel sad for him.