Sleep is not good recently. I had a dream last time and woke up in the middle of it. His sister was facing devorce and I told her that her husband looked down her because she was not strong enough. I did not expect myself in a bad mood after a night. I think I might project myself in the dream. I have wasted tons of time because of relationship with him for the past two years. I don't want to repeat the same mistake. He is only a partner for now. I don't think he loves me, although he is depend on me. That's two different things, which can explain how he treats me. Starting from today, at least for a week, I will be living as if by myself. There are a lot more important things that I need to do, and don't use the fight with him as an excuse again. I realize that my love to him has gone and gone with every fight. However, it doesn't matte to me now. I am not sad, just dissappointed. I should neglect him and his impact on me, and just focus on my own bussiness. I do not want to share any feeling with him any more.
