Talking about yoyo, yesterday he was weeping quietly in bed. I was astonished and asked him what happened, and he told me that I ignored him, and that he had to call my name tens of times and I still not answer him (I don’t remember that part though ?). I felt guilty, because I was the second child myself and I remembered occasions I cried quietly on the pillow with my mom and sister in the same bed. I was thinking that my mom only cared about my sister. I bet at that time my mom was helping my sister getting into college because she was refused admission to the college for her heart condition (they said there was a hole in her heart). I bet my mom was doing anything she could to fight for it (my sister went back to another college in a year because of my mom’s fight). But I was feeling very neglected. I didn’t want this feeling happen to yoyo and apparently he did feel that way yesterday. I said sorry to him and I really do feel sorry. Yoyo seems to be a normal naughty and careless boy but he is actually very sensitive. I believe this is the 2nd child syndrome and sometimes I did wish I don’t have a 3rd one because of that.
This morning yoyo took his ‘revenge’ – he claimed he had tummy ache and I had to bring Jiajia to school at school time and bring him to school one hour later. I think this is the way he gets my full attention – but he did feel embarrassed when he went to school so I hope this doesn’t happen too often ?
