那个背影让我想起从前的我，泪水不住地流。我小时候家庭不幸，妈妈常向我诉说心中的痛苦。妈妈的话让我难过。我常常流着泪去上学，擦干泪再进教室。All these changed my whole life. Later on, when I had to make important life decision, I made it according to whether it would make my parents happy. I have never thought of myself. I thought my happiness was not important. Anyway, it was a hard life. I am a single mother now with a little boy who is also at third grade. I have to work in the daytime and pick up my son on my way home. I have to fix dinner and check his homework at night. I don't blame anybody for my life. But I do believe a happy childhood is important. I don't tell my son my pain. I let him have his life. I know if I pour out my heart, he can't help and I give myself more trouble.Several of my friends told me that my son was one of the happiest boys they have ever seen.That is who I want him to be.
The other thing is about quitting job and staying in China longer. You probably have never worked in China before. Every time you went to China, you were a German employee. Things could be totally different if you become a Chinese employee. Other people could develop their career very well in China. But not everybody can do it. It is not an issue of competency. It is very very political. All those difficulties you have had in Germany are predictable. You have lived through that. But the situations in China are unpredictable.
You mentioned that another two years could be beneficial for Anna. It depends what kind of person you would like to develop her. Whether you want her to be a person like you or like her grandmother. I am like you. We are both career women. Very hard life. What do you want of your girl?
I would like to write in Chinese, but I don't have good software to type it. Sorry about that.
I wish you the best. I like your blog very much. It is one of my spiritual support. Thanks.
