get over it

Last Friday, I officially finished my 6 years affair. Now I am calmer, and look back, the reason for broke up is mini, but I am not regretting. My heart is still bleeding, and I can't sleep well, my body is still shaking a bit, after all, I didn't play a game with him. so I should allow myself be real, and give me some time to get over it.

But I know this is best thing I have ever done, I might loose my fantasy, but I save my family. I daren't image myself in my 40s', lost husband, lost sweet home, nobody loves me, my emma will hate me too.and day by day's gulity feeling. All of these, I should have done this long time ago, I was risking the most precious things in my life.

It's all worth it. but I do need ease the angers. it is not good for me, also it is not fair for him. after all, he didn't do something major bad. he might not be strong person, and might not be that smart, but he has his own right to do whatever he wants to do, even he likes the people who mess up with him, it is his business. I need leave it.

I have most beautiful life than most people, I don't have to be jealous with others.