E是我们那里最早发家致富的一批人，早早就看上进口彩色电视机，装上家用电话。我们小的时候一堆小孩儿挤在他家看电视，早年的经典电视剧和春节联欢都是和E一家一起看的。E喜欢小赌，有时输点儿有时赢点儿。到后来，听人们说他技术高超，赢了不少钱。每年春节回家都在偷偷摸摸的赌，有人劝他戒赌，有人盼他赌，每个人都有自己的小算盘。
这次回去听说E最后一把玩大了，输了三十多万；回家老婆不算，哭天抢地的数落他。E腹背受敌，当夜中风半瘫了。等能扶着轮椅站起来，E央求老婆推着他去赌场看看，只是赌场没人再给他让座了。东山再起，只能是在梦中了。
想起《猜火车》里头的那句台词：Choose life. Choose a job. Choose a career. Choose a family. Choose a fucking big television, Choose washing machines, cars, compact disc players, and electrical tin openers. Choose good health, low cholesterol and dental insurance. Choose fixed- interest mortgage repayments. Choose a starter home. Choose your friends. Choose leisure wear and matching luggage. Choose a three piece suite on hire purchase in a range of fucking fabrics. Choose DIY and wondering who you are on a Sunday morning. Choose sitting on that couch watching mind-numbing sprit- crushing game shows, stuffing fucking junk food into your mouth. Choose rotting away at the end of it all, pishing you last in a miserable home, nothing more than an embarrassment to the selfish, fucked-up brats you have spawned to replace yourself. Choose your future. Choose life... But why would I want to do a thing like that?
RENTON: I chose not to choose life: I chose something else. And the reasons? There are no reasons. Who need reasons when you've got heroin?一个个小选择构成了一个人的命运：选择抽烟，选择喝醉，选择垃圾食品，选择晚睡晚起，选择逃避，选择把生命浪费在不重要无意义的事情上。。。尽管旁人反复提醒劝解，尽管自己心里也明白其中利弊，就是过不了当下这一关。
要是能重新选择就好了，就像电影里头说的那句：不如我们从头来过。可惜没有如果，所有的改变只能从现在开始。
