Yesterday 1/27, we had a very short meeting in my office. I waited for him at 6pm in the parking lot and here he came. He wore a red sweatshirt and gray sweat pants. The moment he entered my office, he immediately closed the door and turned off the light. I was playing a song for him, a song I used to play a lot when I first started to know him intimiately. He hugged me tightly for a while then told me he had to leave in an hour. I am used to this and understand his situation. He started to kiss me very passionately. He first started to remove all his clothes and then sat on the floor and started to remove my clothes. He started to click me passionately. We sat face to face on the floor, which was the new position we never used before. Within 5 minutes, we came at the same time. I first asked him if he came, he said yes, then he asked me, I said yes too. He seemed to be very surprised. I replayed the song and suddenly sadness emerged so overwhelmingly when I heard that song that my hands stopped moving on his body. I tried to swallow the tears because I did not want to spoil the peaceful moment and the moment so precious to me and I hope to him too. Then I gathered my thoughts and started to concentrate on the moment, not 8 months ago. Then I was still on top of him feeling him so close to me while touching his body everywhere. Then I started to massage his body and he said he was very relaxed because his body was very sore. Around 7pm we put on our clothes, and I told him suddenly I did not want to live with the other person anymore. He asked me why and I told him briefly about my thoughts. He said we did not have time to talk about it, but we can talk about it later. I do not know when I can see him soon again. 1/28/06
