8/20 星期五

时间过得真快，或者说我更新太慢。。。最近事情多多，烦心的事情也不少，心神不定的时候很难写东西。在新team的工作已经开始1个月3周，磕磕碰碰的，仍在努力确立自己不可取代的位置，很多时候feel very frustrated, it takes a lot effort to gain trust from members in other offices, since we dont see each other everyday, its not easy to build up any close relation. We will have a test soon, which was taken up by the other guy in my team, but since he is busy with other projects, I took it over. Its not a very difficult project, but honestly I would rather take it from the beginning, instead of taking over from a half way, so I have to try to understand all the mess the other guy left, which annoyed me a lot. During a meeting, one support guy in HK office said directly that, I am too new, it would be better to have the other guy in charge and I could assist... I was quite pissed, but stayed calm, and convinced him that I would be able to handle it. I need to make this test work out perfectly, to gain the credits I am eager for.

For relationship issue, Dave and I, we broke up. Its good for both, definitely. And we still stay in touch, as friends. I think this is the best way, since he doesnt wanna give up his life in aus and move to Tokyo for me, and I cant leave my job to move to Aus for him either... With the distance issue, its very difficult for this relationship to work out. We decided to end it, being rational like adults. Well, I do feel sad, and we still love each other, but life has to go on, so its all for the best.

There is another guy, lets call him B for now. We went out a couple times so far, and talked a lot too, during work hours by emails, lol... B wanna be my bf, and I am not very sure, cos we are way too different, and he has a lot personal issues which I have no idea how to deal with... But we will see, I am taking it slow this time.