搬家已有些时日，堆在车库的东西还是没有清理完。假期阴雨天做不了什么事，于是洗衣服，清理旧物，偶然发现了女儿的日记本。这还是2011年她上初一时记下的一些感受，时光已经过去了几年，读罢那些充满爱的话语，禁不住让我泪花闪闪。
The Joyful things in my life
- My mum picking clothes out for me and telling me to try them on. The way she smiles when something looks good.
- My dad telling me to go put my socks on.
- How happy my mum is when she makes something that tastes great.
- When I'm sitting down with mum and dad and they're commenting on the TV show we're watching.
- Giving my parents a hug before going to bed.
-How happy my mum is when I have a good reprot and how proud my dad seems.
- When my parents forgive me after i did something wrong.
- When my mum sings with me on the car.
All my joy seems to come from my parents. All of it is due to the love they give me. Giving my dad one hug brings me even more happiness than a performance. My parents are the ray of light in my life. I'm happy that I've realised all this now and not twenty years later. I'm thankful that I still have so much time left with them. I'll treasure them forever. I'll never stop loving them.
This diary entry is precious to me. Each word is what I truly feel.
Message to my self:
Treasure all that you have before it's too late. If you're angry, think about all the love your parents give you. You know deep in your heart that they truly care about you. Don't be blinded, by love, pride, hate or greed. They're the most important people that you will ever meet in your life. You know that you love them.
In a few years, will I still remenber life like this? Going shopping with my mum. Eating dinner with my parents and Cindy. Sitting down with my parents to watch dramas. Will all of these memories fade away one day? Will I even remember that I once sat down at dinner table and cried while worrying about the future? I don't want to forget about listening to my dad's voice while he tutors his students. I don't want the sound of the garage door opening and closing to disappear. I don't want time to pass as quickly as it is now. I don't want them to leave me alone in this world. How can i spend more time with them though? Every day , we go to work and school, eat dinner and the day is basically over. I want to make the most of my time with them but I just don't know how. I want my parents to be here with me forever......but I know that it's impossible. My mum warm smiles, the loving way she looks at me when I feel sick. My dad telling me to go put another layer of clothes on because my hands feels too cold. I don't want these to disappear. I don't want them to go. I love them.
Unfortunately, time donesn't stop or rewind for anyone. it only keeps moving forward. That's something that no one is able to change.
All I can do is treasure everything I have. Give all the love I can to the people around me. Make the most of everything before it disappears.
(- October, 2012)
妈妈后记： 也许因为刚刚上中学，离开了熟悉的环境和朋友，心里本就有些不安。在那之前我的身体不好，住院、治疗、恢复，给她的心里带来压力，担心我过早离开，焦虑时刻伴随，有时候情绪会伤感、易怒，容易流泪。这大概也是她用以说服和鼓励自己而记下的。经过我们共同的努力，改变自己的处事方法，后来我们的关系真是越来越好，今年她就要18岁了，我们越来越像朋友和姐妹，一起看戏，逛街，享受美食，爱无处不在。
注：下面的歌曲是网友在评论里推荐的歌曲《In my daughter's eyes》
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