《我没有资格纪念您》石蝶
其实我没有资格纪念您
十几年了
我依然没有
翻开那个永久浸泡在血色中
刀痕累累的封面
一层层鲜活着痛的耻辱
深埋了我的勇气
我没有资格来纪念您
因为我不曾走过那蚀魂的路
不知道您经过了怎样的地狱
同一个创伤
吞噬过圣女般的 Minnie Vautrin
和六十年后的您
我没有资格来纪念您
十四亿人中
我也是个卸了甲的男子
居然要一个花季的女孩儿
选择了这个生命不可承受的使命
您昂然地去了
看昔日的魔鬼活在"优雅"中叙述
三十万冤魂的制作
归来时
地狱从此吸附着难再安宁的灵魂
无法褪去
真的，我没有资格来纪念您
我只能确定
有一天
我会带上我的孩子到您的墓前
讲您的故事
转自网络: Wilhelmina "Minnie" Vautrin (September 27, 1886 – May 14, 1941) was an American missionary, diarist, educator and president of Ginling College. She was a Christian missionary in China for 28 years. She is known for the care and protection of as many as ten thousand Chinese refugees during the Nanking Massacre in China,[1] at times even challenging the Japanese authorities for documents in an attempt to protect the civilians staying at her college. After persisting in the Nanking Safety Zone from 1937, she returned to the United States under extreme stress in 1940. She committed suicide there in 1941, still wishing in her diary that she could return to her work in China. Vautrin was posthumously awarded the Emblem of the Blue Jade by the Chinese government for her sacrifices during the Nanjing Massacre.
这样一本书，竟然让一个弱女子完成了。这几天，后蜀花蕊夫人的"十四万人齐解甲，更无一个是男儿" 一直萦绕在脑中。。。
