看多这样一篇文说：努力尝试去做每一件自己不愿意做的事情。
为了什么呢？为了能改变自己！比如每天5点钟起床，比如每天跑步40分钟，比如每天学习2个小时。这些都是我不愿意的事情，及其的不愿意。又好比现在，及其的不愿意弄拖延到今天还没有弄好的讲稿，拖啊拖，拖坏了自己的心情。
我经常都活在一个幻想和想象的世界中，很顽固。一旦有时候逃离了这幻觉，才感受到了些些真实的乐趣。
我不小了，可是为什么仍旧那么不接受长大？问天问地问自己！
跟这儿写这些无聊的文字本身就是一种逃避，我想是的。还不想给谁看，我自己的心，我自己的天地，我悲悲切切自怨自怜的地方。
每时每刻都在想你，每时每刻。可是又想了些什么呢？真遇到的时候甚至不知所云，甚至不敢看你。
胡言乱语～～～～
总之心好乱，好乱，或谓之为紧张。接下来做什么呢，下网，关机，去MENSA吃饭。。然后，去做不愿意做的事情：看书！
2005。06。14
We all have times like this. Writing helps sort your emotions out. Try to be nicer to yourself. We were taught to better ourselves when we grow up. That's why we have a long list of "must-do-it", and we might not be satisfied even we finish all of them, because the list is endless, you can always find more things that are must-do-it.
Do not put too much pressure on yourselves. Be kind to yourself. Everyone has her own strength. Once you start accepting yourself, you feel less resentful to things like study.
Good luck to you,
