I am still in a shock. I can hardly remember what had happened or why it had happened yesterday. We were in a dilemma and I am not sure we've been completely out of it, but we'll give it a try and plus we've had promises. So we have hope. And it is all about love. He said he couldn't remember what my laughter sounded like any more. It was too painful to remember that. I feel so sorry. I watched their sitcom last night, before the alcohol got me drunk. It was numb. They used to be so much fun to watch, because I could relate it to him; it made me feel warm and sweet. I feel truly sorry now. It was a trauma. It takes time to recover. I need a good sleep. That is what I needed since we met. I wish we are going to warm each other up and have a good sleep together tomorrow.
