5/8 星期二

Mario...he is in Australia now. 前几天晚上，突然收到Mario的message，我还以为见了鬼，他说，he has been out to sea for 2 months, and internet down in the ship...blah blah... 他说, sorry, miss you, pls forgive me...blah blah... 他说，wanna see me again when he gets back...blah blah... 我说，I want more than just sex, 他说，ok, I will try, lets take it slow and see what happens... DAMN! 我都快把Mario忘了，他又突然跳出来，真是阴魂不散。我的生活好像8点的肥皂剧，反反复复几个人物，我方唱罢，他登场，倒是很热闹。Anyway, I dont think its a good idea for me to see Mario again, George said so too, even though we might be able to get into a relationship something, it wouldnt last long. 想起看到过的Cartier的新平面广告，新的广告词是，“How far would you go for LOVE”，well, good question, how far would I go??? I asked Dave if he would leave everything he has here to follow the true love, he said he would consider it, I dont think I can do that. I mean, even though its the true big love, still, its not worth putting all my hopes and life on. I could do a lot crazy shit for love, or for lust, but I definitely dont want love to become the only factor that matters in my life, that, is TOO CRAZY. Guess I am not romantic enough, lol. Anyway, back to the point, I dont think I could sacrifice my lifestyle for Mario, apparently he has a totally different lifestyle from mine, this is not gonna work. Still one month left before he comes back, who knows what gonna happen.

Finally the Golden Week is over, and no feedbacks yet. This feedback has been haunting me, last night I had a nightmare, on my way to LB's party, I almost got flushed off the roof, then a huge ugly blue spider on my back, which freaked me out... 好像历险记一样。今天在家打扫卫生，擦窗户，爸妈回来了，在网上拉着我讲话，我心不在焉。This golden week really slowed down everything, I HATE IT!!! Hopefully by this week or next week, would hear something new.