I would like to share a little story with you. About a week or two ago, I became verryy anxious, worried and overwhelmed with how I sounded and what I said to people. I did NOT feel myself. I was not my bubbly, outgoing, talkative self anymore who did not care so much what people thought of me. This lasted for about 5 days or so, and I HATED how I was feeling. I felt sooo unsure of myself all the time and I did NOT LIKE IT ONE BIT! You get my point. :-). So!, I finally just decided to give it all up to God one night. I went into the chapel in my dorm hall, sat down in utter silence and solitude, and literally poured out all my thoughts and feelings to God. I told him how anxious and worried and overwhelmed I was with life in general -- the loads of homework college dumps on you, the stresses of new relationships/
The next day I woke up feeling amazing! All my worries, anxieties, feelings of stress and insecurity were gone! God had truly spoken to me and answered my prayers. It was great! The rest of that day and still up to THIS day, I have felt calm, confident, peaceful, happy, VERY sure of myself, and carefree. I am no longer afraid to make silly jokes, speak my mind, and just be Christine, who is goofy, random, funny, outgoing, talkative, etc. God HEARD me that night and transformed my inner thoughts and feelings. He reversed them all to serve me best.
So, Terrie, I strongly suggest to you ( if you are Christian, and even if you are not) to just go to God sometime and tell him ALL your problems, worries, and feelings of fear. Talk to him like he is your best friend. He will for sure hear you. He always does. Whether he answers you or not is up to Him. Don't be discouraged if he does not answer you. Be grateful though that you have an awesome, all-knowing, infinite and great God to go to and tell your problems to knowing that He will not judge you. Also know that this huge step of faith and giving of yourself to God is the building blocks/ the first step to developing a more personal and close relationship with God. It is just a great experience. Also, you will FEEL so much better after you vent all of your inner struggles and feelings to God. Try it out. See what happens. Report back to us, or just me, and tell us/me what happened. Good luck!
Also, best of luck to you in your presentation, Terrie. I have faith you will do great, stutter or not. You need to remember you are facing some huge demons that most people do not face until much later in life and sometimes never at all. This is the first step to transforming Terrie and you are the most courageous I know right now. :-)) Keep it up!
Thanks for listening and God Bless,
Christine Dits
