big tension

   This lunch time, when picking up dalsten from daycare, I had qurrel with mom again. In fact, it is just some small issue that daycare teacher thing dalsten wear too much clothes, so he is not willing to go to PP frequently. I just want mom understand that kids should not dress so much. she immediately got angry. I knew she has a lot of tension because of me. but the more tesion we have, the much more calm we need. I always can not understand why she get mad right away whenever talking about something about dalsten.
    I knew everything is due to shahbaz. Because his all troubles, our family and myself and children all get problems. I don't know why I am just so stupidly choosing to continue. is this my fate???
   Olympia's nick name changed to LingLing because BeiBei sounds not that much lucky. I am not that concerned about it. but mom and sisters really care about that. they did a lot for me. I should respect that. Lingling, my dear, before you come, you already experience too much from your parent. I wish you fluently coming to this world.