Joy,
This is a love story – your own personal love story. How can I describe a love so deep that it continually surprises even me? Sometimes – even now – I am so surprised that I am frightened. Frightened of what I will do if it is really over. You are my life, my breath, my being. Each day with you is like the sun shining the first day of creation. For you truly are a miracle. How else can I describe what you have done for me and to me? I see your face so perfectly. Remember, you once told me that my photograph is in your heart? – Well how correct you are! I hear the sound of your voice. I smell the scent of you when you lie next to me. I feel the touch of your hand on my arm. I taste the sweetness of your kiss. These are with me always and I take them out of their special place in my heart every day – whenever I need your strength and encouragement and your love.
So I decided to write this story of my love for you – and to exorcise my angst. It started as a story, but as you read it you will see that I quickly abandoned the sham of a romantic tale and said what is in my heart.
I don’t know how I will go on. One time you told me that you can disappear and I will never find you. Well, you are disappearing before my very eyes. It hurts! It hurts so terribly that it is all I can do to bear it. But, no matter where you may go you can never be rid of my love. It follows wherever your life leads.
I’m sorry that, for your sake, I didn’t just go away. I wanted to, but when I tried I couldn’t hold to my resolve – I just could not leave you. Besides that, soul mates don’t desert each other! If ever you need me, I will be there in a heartbeat.
Sometimes life is strange and plays dirty tricks. I thought I was so clever that I could have your love and at the same time keep my other life. I couldn’t. What can I say? I love you forever! That’s trite, but true. So true that I will spend my life being in love with you.
I wish you a great life. May you find the love you seek.
Josh
The ecstasy of love
does not regard the defenseless soul
