5/30 星期三

明天早晨的飞机，我房间现在好像龙卷风过后一样，满地东西，还没有packing。昨晚没睡觉，本来打算收拾一下，结果Dave也失眠，我们2个半夜3点在网上聊天，topic是politics！LOL！真的，我们在讨论politician和lawyer哪个更无耻一些，最后得出的结论，lawyer是politician的初级阶段，一个lawyer无耻到一定程度，就可以考虑政治仕途了，例如Clinton？不过我对Clinton印象还算不错，虽然他是professional liar，but at least he is smart, not like Bush who is just a joke, kinda entertaining the whole world with his low IQ.

周一向老爸汇报我要回去，抱怨机票贵，他希望我在家待久一些，我觉得10天已经够久的，估计会闷个半死。朋友问我回家有什么plan，我说，"stay with parents, boring to die"，这是事实。老爸问我，是不是不想家，我很老实的说，不太想。这听起来不太好，不过是实话，it has nothing to do with my parents. 轶一直想回国，但从来不想回家，因为她和她父母关系很紧张，她亲娘在轶很小的时候就去世了，轶一直不喜欢她后妈，所以我大概可以理解为什么轶会对亲近的人有很强的依赖感。我和我爸妈关系很好，他们很爱我，我也爱他们，但是，my life is here, everything I have is here, career, personal life, future plan, hope... whatever all here, and I am so over occupied by all those stuff, really dont have much time to miss home, well, sounds a bit cold-blooded, but I think they can understand that. I suppose, dad has realized that I am not his little girl any more for a long while.

我去看了新办公室，有点儿搞笑。一家office service公司租下了整个27层，然后把它分割成若干小办公室，再转租给各公司。这样没什么不好，各种服务都由这家公司提供，很是方便，只是，这层办公室的装修风格实在是太搞笑了，不知道是哪个弱智想出来的。decoration theme is EGYPT, lol, EGYPT! Can you believe that? Well, I like egyptian stuff, actually I always wanna go to egypt, that country and culture are fascinating me. But this is an office, supposed to be bright and professional, now everywhere full of egyptian statuettes or paintings of ancient egypt kings or whatever little stuff which have ever been showed in The Mummy. I felt like in a museum, later I told Dave about the office, we were laughing so much, now this new start-up company is really fun, I am getting more and more excited for it.

Monday evening, I had dinner with Kevin and Yasuko, Yasuko arranged this. I think she is interested in Kevin, and kinda trying to get closer with him, but then why she always brings me in together? Yasuko坐在另一边，我和Kevin在同一边，她不停对Kevin放电，波及无辜，电得我都直哆嗦，只好低头猛吃，我最近的食欲是越来越好了。其实旁人看来很明显，Kevin对Yasuko没有特别的兴趣，只是普通的hang out而已，而Yasuko拼命表白自己对感情一直都是非常的“serious”，我还真没看出来。Kevin问我的感想，我说，I dont like pressure, too serious, it will stress me out, 他用看怪物一样的眼神看我。我觉得Kevin is a very decent guy, would be a good boyfriend, but not for me, he is "too simple, too naive", I would like to keep him as a good friend, it would be cool to hang out with him, but no more. I miss Mario, for no reasons, or maybe there are some reasons, the email server on his ship down again, now I start to miss those "annoying" emails from him. 

The IT manager in the big company which has given me an offer called me last night, he was trying to convince me to take their offer again. The manager is a really good guy, he has been very nice to me during the whole process, and trying to push everywhere to make sure I would get the offer paper as soon as possible. So somehow its very tough for me to say NO to him, I am sure he would be a very good boss too, and working in the company would be fun, but I have made my decision, and I cant step back now. He said, if this time I decide not to take their offer, they hope me to keep in touch, and maybe 2 years later, if I wanna change job again, they would like to offer some new opportunities. I was so touched, and wondered, --am I that good??? Anyway, I think I need to write an email to the manager in a very nice and polite way, to tell him that I cant accept the offer this time. Just for a moment, I doubt about my decision a little, oh... cant change mind now, hope I have picked up the right one.