The last two days, he was calling all the time and tried to get in touch with me. I am just so tired and sad and angry. He knows why I am not accepting the calls, but no matter what happened, he only pretend to be no aware of that. what's the point to answer the call, the same cycle will start again. no money, no care, no love. why my marriage come to this point at this moment. I am sad about myself and about the coming baby. but I still need to encourage myself, everything will be gone, just like gone with wind. the only thing left possible is the sad mark in the heart that nobody could see except yourself. God bless my baby. I love you and wish all the past months gave you all my best. kiss u :)
