first

This is my first diary. Just came back from China and feels like I have been away for a long time. It's only when I drove back to the community, then I have some feeling that I like this place and I have home or more exactly a house here.
For the past 2.5 weeks, I have been to three places beijing, shanghai and qidong. and have met quite some people. High school classmate, tsinghua classmates, labmates, colleages in shanghai, relatives in Qidong... It really makes feel warm. There are more friends back in China than in USA, that's for sure.
The bad thing is the house price in beijing, the hot weather in beijing and the uncertainty of my future, zhijun's career... Is she going to survive in this business area and will be able to grow and move up the ladder? Will I be able to find something that promising and will make us rich? The future, how it will be look like? It's so unclear. For sure, I have some friends and connections. But still the thing is where to start? Maybe when is also a question, but the most important is that I may fail even I never seriously thinking about it.
Today when I am sitting here, thinking what is good about here: good weather, a normal job which pay the bill.  But no friends, quite boring, all the people you care about are back in China.
Still, the things I have think are house, find some US products which I can be agent, find a start point in China, making money.
Just like my name used here, it is a changing stage, so I would like to write down the things happening during the very important stage of my life and my families life.