what do I really want from blog?

no offense to all the bloggers. I am seriously thinking, in my stupid chinglish, about this stupid question, again.: what do I really want from doing blog?
cyberlove/cyberfriend?? wahahaha. honestly speaking, I am always amazed by those people's creativity and stupidity in cyberworld. It is pathetic though. people come and go. Sooner or later, party will be over. 
show-off ?  of what? being a winner? as a winner, do I really need or care about e-acknowledgement from cyberworld? as a loser, what to show off?  Either way, it is pathetic. hence a loser anyway.
being a "whinning baby"? sorta... back to Maslow's hierarchy of needs.  lack of satisfaction in real world.  again, pathetic.
diary. sorta.. the only useful thing about blog.
killing time? definitely! it's just that I don't have the luxury to have so many time to kill. It's a sin.  blogging, same as watching TV, is addictive.  that's for sure. I should probably stop doing these two life-waster..  . ....and start to live a real life..