和bf同居后，我那段时间晚上去college拿课学习programming， 是为了和engineers工作得更默契协调。因为我的专业是界面设计不编程的。当时那个star tup使用.net这个语言的。我就让bf教教我。他捣鼓一下.net后说这是什么垃圾语言啊。然后开玩笑说我和他在一起是为了学编程。我一听就火大了，威胁要把他扫地出门。他认识到玩笑开大了，于是就有了那封唯一的道歉情书。
Cara mia,
On the way back on the Bay Bridge I was thinking it is a perfect time to express what you mean to me and write you a love letter. I know I cannot take back that careless stupid joke I made as much as I wish that I could take it back. I feel I failed and hurt you.
I will tell you how precious you are to me and how important our relationship is to me. You gave my life a new dimension. You opened up a new world to me. you made a blind man see. My surroundings are sharper with you,my experiences more intense. But the most important gift you had for me was the opportunity you gave me to share, to share my knowledge, to share my time. I started to realize with you that I can make somebody else smile, laugh, that I can make somebody else happy.It is said that teaching is the noblest profession and you are the noblest teacher I had. You taught me all your experience and you have done it with kindness, gentleness and patience. I don't have words to express the many ways you have changed me. I was a very selfish, self-absorved man and you made me be understanding and caring, you helped me gain another perspective and you showed me the important things in life.
Baby, I love you. I love your smart, knowing and kind eyes. I love your wonderful hair, I love every inch of you. I love you. So don't push me away. I know it's easier to let go than to hold on but you and I we have a wonderful magic going between us that is worth keeping and holding on to.
U
